Sunday, December 09, 2007

In the void

Yo.

You ever get the feeling that something's gonna happen? Like any day now, something is going to happen, and my life will be forever changed. That's how I feel right now.

The new job is cool, if somewhat boring. The people are great and extra money is never bad. I have PAL1 to thank. I'm glad he needed a familiar friendly face in the pharmacy.

I underwent a very minor medical procedure last week that will help to improve my overall quality of life. I already feel it. No, I didn't get breast implants.

I see Gary Glancer at the gym more now than I did over the past year. After our last "date", I never called or emailed him. He emailed me, but I didn't reply. I saw him a while back at the gym, said hello, and he promptly disappeared into the mens locker room - and didn't emerge again. Pussy. LOL. Saw him again yesterday, said hello. He tried to start a convo but I wasn't having it. Don't waste my precious gym time, you pretentious prick, I should have said. Instead, I walked back to the squat rack and ran into my least favorite gym goer - the cousin of my stalker ex from 1999. He wanted to talk too, but my icy glare quickly discouraged him. Soon I may run into Karl at the gym, and he will be a much more welcome sight.

Oh. Making some interesting breakthroughs and revelations. Recognizing red flags from men more readily now. Realizing that the less I care about an outcome, the clearer minded I am. Also relearning that if I don't care about seeing some dude, don't return his calls and make him do 100% of the effort, dude wants me even more. I gently scoff at Al for playing mind games with all his hos (oops, I meant special ladies), but it does seem effective. I'm not purposely playing a game, I just don't have time or energy to mess with someone who is lost in life. Find your fucking way and if that way leads back to me and you've got your head on straight, cool. In the meantime, leave me alone. I'm not your mommy, I'm not here to fix you, encourage you to live better or get your act together. There are plenty of women out there looking to do all that. Waste their time, not mine.

Alright, now that I've vented...

Axis and Allies is a cool game if you have 12 hours free. I might join Cal at some role playing game thing, I'm not sure exactly what it is. If it doesn't last 12 hours, I'm down.

Loving that Sarah is hosting New Food Friday. Freaking genius. You cook something you've never made (and preferably never have eaten) before. Potluck style at the Love Muffin's pad. I like to cook, but I need a reason. So this is a positive thing.

What else. Christmas shopping is nearly complete. Nails are polished. Nice leg workout today. My mom's dog is happy. All is well. I'm just waiting for something to happen.

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